Who Are You?

Note:  This is an exploration for a larger story project....

After working 18 hours a day 6 days a week for many years, when I was out of work, I found myself having to write down my likes and my dislikes - I had to shift out of automatic and learn how to drive in first gear again.  My mind was adrift searching for a safe-harbor, a new way of life, a new way to live it. 

I still go to bed ticking, and wake up erratically because the watch is no longer ticking but I am.  People say, that I should regulate my life through others movement - having them be my timepiece. 

Who are you?   

Are you the reflection in the mirror, a shard of glass, the store window, the handle of your bicycle?  Are they all you, the images caught of who you were in those moments?  Is it a magic mirror that distorts your image?  Is it you, who you are in all of those objects, defined with certainty, is it your true nature or the nature of the world - and were you in it?  Where is my point of reference?  A hand held guidebook showing you the path to walk on, do you stay on it, so you can get to where you're going?  Do you like what you see past your reflection, what is behind you in another room?    The past is not behind, because you left it in the front yard for all to see, for you, for them, a reminder for your 7 year cells.

Who are you? 

You can search for yourself online.  Is that who you are?  A google search away from finding out everything you need to know about yourself.  Perhaps Wiki-people has your dossier on it, you compartmentalized with blue italicized embedded links to your family, friends, spouse, ex-spouse(s), your resume, blog, portfolio, reel, facebook, myspace, linkedin and twitter pages, pictures from your high school yearbook, and your college paper, books you've read, movies and music you like and dislike, charity and group affiliations, your criminal record, your tax records, your age, birth date, blood type, medical records, and FICA scores, all just a scroll away.  The complete list includes: the heroes, celebrities, athletes, writers, poets, and villains that share your name.  All your information profiled so the ads appearing would correlate to the product displayed with each page view.  And, your dashboard tells you who viewed you by day, week, month, all time history, and what country it was trafficked from.  Is that what you were searching for?  Is that who you are?

Who Am I? 

Nicole  - means cold in German, and Victor or Leader of the people in Greek.

Gabriel - means war in German, and God's able bodied one - in Greek

So I could be a cold war, a leader of the people that God able bodied, a cold God abled body, or a leader of the war.   

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DeLeon - means of Lions according to Irish guides, and from Lyon according to a French reference.  That will come later.

Who Am I?
Am I a numercial value whose sum is actually the total, or just a component?



 

N	I	C	O	L	E		G	A	B	R	I	E	L
5	9	3	6	3	5		7	1	2	9	9	5	3

The Meaning of a name using Numerology
Numerology is an ancient science developed by Pythagoras. It is believed that numerology offers an insight into the personality by assigning numeric values to the letters contained in names.  Each letter contained in the name is assigned a number. Every number is associated with specific characteristics.
 

1	2	3	4	5	6	7	8	9
A	B	C	D	E	F	G	H	I
J	K	L	M	N	O	P	Q	R
S	T	U	V	W	X	Y	Z

Add together all the numbers of the name:

Nicole (5+9+3+6+3+5) = 31 and Gabriel (7+1+2+9+9+5+3) = 36
Then add together the values 31+36 = 67 
Then add together 6+7 = 13

Then add together 1+3 = 4

Adding my married name:

D	E	L	E	O	N
4	5	3	5	6	5

Add together all the numbers of the name:

Nicole (5+9+3+6+3+5) = 31, Gabriel (7+1+2+9+9+5+3) = 36, and DeLeon (4+5+3+5+6+5) = 28
Then add together the values 31+36 + 28 = 95 
Then add together 9+5 = 14

Then add together 1+4 = 5

So have I changed who I am just by changing my name when I got married?  Have I changed from a 4 to a 5? (interpretation chart below)  Have I strayed from the "Traditionalist" and become a "Free Spirited Creative".  Perhaps, perhaps not.  I wanted to transform my life, but did that happen before or after I changed my name, did it happen at all?  I cannot not tell you, I do not know.  If it did transpire, I didn't see it happening, yet I sit here writing.  Is this what they mean when people say someone has "completely changed after they got married"?  Are we the search engine, the image, the origin, the name, the numbers, or the nature?

Interpretation Meaning and Characteristics using Numerology and the Name Number

Number	Meaning & Characteristics
1	Competitive - a leader, independent, strength, creative and original
2	Diplomatic - friendly, tactful, peaceful, gentle and sensitive
3	Optimistic - Easygoing, sociable, spontaneous and humorous
4	Traditionalist - Determined, reliable, conservative, activist and organized
5	Creative - Free spirited, artistic, enquiring, innovative and influential
6	Contributor - Responsible, careful, conventional and reliable
7	Inventive - Imaginative, resourceful, eccentric, quiet and thoughtful
8	Organizer - Leadership skills, planner, strong, high achiever and sound judgment
9	Humanitarian - Compassionate, caring, charitable and civilized

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